I know a church pastor in my neighborhood who is one of the most generous vessels of human compassion I've ever met. Once in awhile I sing at one of their services in exchange for using the church for concerts and practice, and every time, she tells some story in her sermon that makes me want to curl up in a ball and cry because it's so beautiful and fraught with conflicting emotions. I always have to get ahold of my blubbering self and sing right after that, which always makes me realize that the real purpose of the musician is to be a vessel, too. For practical reasons, you can't cry and sing at the same time. You can't do it for aesthetic reasons either, because if you cry, they worry about you and can't concentrate on the music. It always amazes me that Laurie doesn't cry when she preaches, but I guess it's the same kind of thing.
Ego is such a big problem for us music types. Given that it's one of the most competitive professions in existence, it's a tall order for a musician to be free of insecurity, envy and pride. But I'm beginning to think there's just no room for that if the music is going to be meaningful and pure.
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God people love telling tales that seem important, it's what they do, their gig. After thousands of years it’s well rehearsed and they know their cause and effect.
Ego is what we are. What you do is who you are, at least it’s the manifestation of your essence. Compressing or repressing the ego is just frustration. Play your music with a "you" stamp - that's what makes things special and unique.
Unavoidable. Nice geode.
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